Tuesday, August 29, 2006
Im lost n defitnately i am..i dont set my priorities rite(juz lyk sha..haha)Damn!! i dont feel anyting..i don feel scared..i don feel tat there's a need 2 rush..Wat happen 2 me..?? Gotta change tis sucky character of mine..!!My fren juz saw tat im bloggin n he is kindda of angry..haiz!! atleast he is finishing but me..Nothing!!
k will c u guyz in a few minutes time..
Nisa Outz!!
sOffy [nurul]
zeila dhila and me!uhm, a friend just died. and a friend's grandfather just died. sigh. i feel so uhmm.. guilty.
hugs & kisses,
FIRAH.
Sunday, August 27, 2006
Ok another lazy sunday..juz staying hm all day n study from 2-7 n i only finish up 4 chpts of business module..still haf 11 chpts 2 go..arggg!! stress2!!
Ok here is e big ting..did any1 of u watch e news?..any news??haha!! yesterday all e logistic students was doing packing 4 tis IMF(4millionsmiles) at e supreme court..n e camera man n news pple cum down 2 record our activities..we need 2 finish 12000 packers in 2 days which is yesterday n today but amazingly we finish packing by 3..(so no need 2 cum today)n u guyz wana knoe wat??e camera man asked us 2 unpacked e packing n do it again so they can record it 4 e news..I was lyk 'no thanz' n trying 2 run away but my frens pull me in..shit2!! my face was lyk crap n my hair doesnt look lyk a hair at all..haha!!
Afta e IMF tingy,we decided 2 eat at clarke quay..den my fren which i had not contacted since we separated giv me a msg n say he saw me on tv!! wakakaka!! i was jumping n laughing lyk mad cow wen i read e msg..So now wen i go out i betta haf a close watch over pple..they might knoe me..hehe!! freako eh aku!!
Yest was full of fun..we chill at clarke quay wif our sch polo t..so proud 2 wear tat wif our sch name(as if)n we talk n hear sum touching song tat makes 1 of my fren cry as she juz broke up..well i try 2 calm her but i cry 2..not bcoz im tinking of him but i understand how she feels as i use 2 b in her shoes b4..all e gals was lyk hugging n crying while e boys donnoe wat 2 do..HAHA!! n tis guy fren of mine sat nx 2 me wen i was staring blankly into space..he tot i was getting emotional but i actually don feel emo 4 myself instead 4 my fren n he started talking sum goody2 advise which i tot was funny n i burst out laughing..
Guyz..sumtimes sweet n sumtimes irritating..


Idiotic pple tat cant stop cheering me up..hehe..but still luv all of u,cute babes..tatz all folks..Nisa Outz..
Saturday, August 26, 2006
hey .. im bored! Sarah here...hehe
WHERE IS EVERYONE?
No one is updating? What happened?
Oh welps .. im bored.. So let me update.
For actually i have to study for an upcoming exam on 31st August! But i cant concentrate.. So decided to log in and surf the net! haha..
ARGHHH i have the urge of going clubbinggggggggg ... My friend called me up just nw.. Asking me along.. But i declined. Better not lah. Exam coming. I cant be enjoying rite.. Its ok Amy.. il join u next time.. I was half-hearted actually.. My friend's uncle let her to have his car for tonight. So its like free transport. And i have yet to give her belated bday prezzie. What kind of friend am i? haha So sorry amy.. i owe u loads loads.. hehe And ive been friends with Amy for what 9 years? And still counting babe. Farah.. Hmm 6 years.. I love u both.
Us at Snow City. =)
That's me, Amy and Farah.
dont think differently about me ok.. Going clubbing doesnt mean drinking n smoking! Well if u think so, i dont ok. I just loove grooving... Let ur hair down babies... WOOHOO! miss those days lah. And and.. and... he let me . He gave me the green light, haha omg... But i knw deep dwn he actually didnt want me too. HMmm..
Oh ya i wanna thank NISA for the ice kacang treat. Hehe so sweet lah u gf. Love u alot. Sha! i cant wait for the slumber party at ur house..ahaha oh ya my hols starting on the 14th Sept! Aite.. keep that in mind babe.. Get ready for ur pyjamas darls, or our baju butterfly. hoho!
Till then..
Nitey Sweet Ladies.
Friday, August 25, 2006
shasha....
anyway... im sorry to all those hu's having a bad week. but i had the perfect one.! except of course when FIANNA gave me blue blacks!... (im gonna bug her forever for this). even the ball that hit me onli left me with a tiny winnie blue black. yes nisa... it DID leave its mark on me. hahaha... no lah... its good to get marks once in a while. i havent had any in a while so its all welcome!
so.... 'my man'... gave me his ipod. haha... not give give... kinda lent it to me. and he has like a thousand songs in it so i dun actually have to bother to put any other songs in it.
okay... i PROMISE! (hopefully) on tues i'll hang with u guys till the end okay?! 2 days without u guys is HELL!.... but i was with him so... heheheh.... minus a little lah okie?!... but whatever. u guys come first.
hmmm... i think thats about it... hahaha... wanna noe more? ask! haha...
orite orite...
love ya'll
shasha
p.s. i hope tues training isnt as bad as thurs. man.... that was HELL!
MY ARM IS ACHING AND IVE GOT BLUE BLACK MARKS ALL OVER IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
man.... ur worse than getting hit by a truck u noe that!??!??!?!?!!?? im SO NOT attacking in her gap anymore! the rest of u can go for it. I SURRENDER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
in pain and in heaven =D
shasha
Its me. The Sweet and Sexy,not forgetting Selenger....
SARAHHH!!!!! ahha
ape kaba semua...? ada baik..? bagus... heheh
OK.. So have not been updating.. Ala.. Nothing special lah. Thats y.
KK, to recap abt what happened today, alahai.. boyfriend picked me up by suprise! And serve me right, i told him a lie. Damn! Shit happens lah. And whats worst, he caught me in the act. He was behind me, he saw me when i said "Ya, im already at the bustop. Lame sey tngu bus."
Well actually he wanted to meet me by 8 at bedok. But i wana spent some time with Nisa. Apedah. What the heck. Ya we did have squabbles on the way home. Yelah, da kene caught babe. He was like, "So, u better confess .. what else u did but u didnt told me abt it? Lain kali blang je lah.." Hmm yelah tu eh... (dalam hati aku lah) So better tell me now. What, u gonna cry now...? Padahal, he loves to see me cry. Palehotak betol.. Ade ke die kate aku nagis aku look cute? kebabai... If u say so sayang... hehehhe.. i know im cute.. hoho
And the past two days, i payed back those unfortunate days during Ramadan. So yup. I fast with two other girlfriends in class. Namely Huda n Nadiah. Heheh. Having loads of motivation from each other, the three of us togethr, our classmates was disturbing us... "Eh korang puase nari? laaa... Rugi ah gini.. kat cafe 2 nga sale.. Buffet going on $2 per person.. Nak ape2 amik je.."
Then i was like... "Sesungguhnye aku berpuase... Ya Allah.. ampuni lah segale dosa kawan2 ku.."
Really2 testing our patience lah all of them. Actually not all lah. hahah ok Whatever it is.. i had fun. Every minute every single day.
Okie clockwise frm top, mark,nadiah,huda,me,bul,aisya and JOh ya cmon girls we gotta improve on our freaking ball handling skills!
Kite da haprak! Doing the drills with the new girls was a great challenge for us!
Do u guys think so? I greatly think so. Cmon lets do it people! =)
Thursday, August 24, 2006
Today was so happening..got excursion to keppel logistic..since im e onli logistic student so might as i well i don haf 2 story everything..But it was so damn huge n superb!!! neva regret studying tis course..
Itz was hell of a fun..taking pics n pics n pics..will post sum pics if i get it frm my fren..(im still waiting 4 fira's pic) *sob sob*
As 4 werk 2day..hmm i tink im reali gona b fat..!! I stuff in icecream again..dark choc especially!! n i eat blueberry cheese pie n chicken salad frm coffee bean(FREE!!)Thanz 2 maria..
Weee...!! I donnoe y im so happy..ahaha!! Crazy i might say..but seriously feels so great inside..thanz God 4 giving me e strength every single day..
Kla babez..will c u guyz tomoro...
Luv ya again n again n again n again till ure sick of me..But i bet u guyz will get sick coz im soooo irressistable..!!!! wakakakakaka!!!
Nisa Outz!!
Tuesday, August 22, 2006
Ok i betta make tis post short n simple..my fren keep bugging me 2 study n stop blogging..Hell NO!!im not stopping but i will blog less regularly..
Juz now training was ok..our crowd has bcum bigger..but we reali need 2 train harder gals..
So happy 2 go hm wif deffy..itz been a long time since i go hm wif her..n she did ask me stupid qns lyk "ur goin hm alone??" I was tinking,i haf been goin hm alone wen she didnt cum down 4 training..haha!! confused deffy i might say..
Aniway we learn a new technique which is e "switches"..I still don get it..!! Mayb it takes time ah..As 4 YANTI..u score a try gal!! erm it seems ur good at winger..DEFFY..don b discourage of ur knees k..we still wan u 2 join rugby even if lose 1 leg of urs..hish!!! touch wood!! pple,u can slap my face if u wan to..ahaha!! Deffy,don quit ya gal..b strong..u need time 2 heal so don go beyond it if u cant..
Shasha!! hmm..sumting sweet goin on between u n him..ahaha!! wateva it is so happy 4 u..hope tings will turn out well..
K la hot,cool,crazy,stupid bunch of rugby babes,tatz all...c ya on thurs again..
Cute,short,fat,curly Nisa wana study now..
*Kissy* u guyz..!!
Nisa Outz..
sigh.
i wana cry.
i got four tests this week.
three tests next week.
two tests and one exam the next next week.
and the following week i need to sit for three major papers.
so much things to do, so little time given. im torn apart between going for my friend's bbq this 1 sept or going for ______ or even better, burying myself with booooks and notess and probably double expresso. haha.
anyway babes, i got this attachment during my holidays. its verrryy interesting one. but the thing is if i go, i cant attend our trainings. my attachments are going to be like 8.30am all the way till 6pm (mondays to fridays). and POLITE is around the corner. if im lucky enough, i get to play la. and if i got undeniably pure dumb luck, i wont get to play for POLITE.
oh i wana crryyy. sooo bad. i didnt eat yesterday, cause im afraid i vomit. i've been vomitting anyway, since the day i went to holland-v's coffee bean. i ate today only because i got training later and i wont want to exhaust myself.
k la people, i wana cry. HAHHAHAHAHHA. tkde laaaa.
AND OH YAHH! sorry i have not send you guys the pics. soon k soon. ((:
Monday, August 21, 2006
alrite alrite!... freakin confusing myself here!
okay... so i went out the 'him' the whole day. well.. not exactly the WHOLE day... but most of it. anyway... he promised to watch Tokyo Drift with me like... last mth or something. lol. never had the time to actually do it. so yesterday he ajak me. so i met him at 3.30 at city hall. and i was early! lol... first time ever. not that im usually late... but recently ive been late alot! lol. onli met him at 3 cos he working frm 8 to 3. so the show was at 5. then the ticket price on Sundays are just great... but he onli took my 5 bucks!... lol. he belanja me movie AND makan! lol. power.
anyway... after the movie we went to Esplanade to jalan jalan. but my fren said that there was a 'Battle of the Bands' thing happening there... so we decided to sebok sebok and watch lah... lame thing is... when we sat down with out bottle of water and chips... this group called 'natural' and 2 black dudes came on stage and started singing..... grrr... so we were looking at each other like... "?????????????". sigh... anyway... we sat there like 1 1/2hrs listening to all kinds of song they were singing. not bad lah actually... but still painful man.. to have to sit through that. lol.
then after that we went off... but we walk to City Hall mrt. but he.. pandai pandai... go ajak me walk the long way.. pass the padang and all... when we could have just walked inside the Esplanade. then we went home. LOL.
story not finish yet arh... still got more.
when i was at Toa Payoh... there was this bunch of african(cant say the N word) guys there. so i took my bus. then one of them sit beside me and the other were around. then suddenly got someone tap tap my arm... kaoz... abeh aku pusing ah... then they were like "can we take ur pic?..." i was like 'NO'. but i think they didnt understand english cos they kept pestering me. then when i turn one of the guys suddenly snapped. kaoz... now gots my pic in him phone. haiz... jangan dier buat aku jadi pornstar sudah... but man... it was freaky... lucky they got off soon after that. grrr.... these ppl... no life! then i go sms 'him' and told him what happen. lol... he say next time he will send me back home! ahahaha... he lives like CCK! jauh kan... but he got car. just that he dun wan to drive. lazy bum. be prefers takin public transport. he dun like traffics. haiz.
kk... i think ive bored u guys enuff... see you guys tomorrow yeah?!
love ya'll
shasha
Sunday, August 20, 2006
Nisa Again??
Juz now..im on my way 2 study den...suddenly i was hit by a motorcycle..im glad im still alive..i was sent 2 changi hospital 2 get treated 4 my small toe..yeah my SMALLEST CUTE TOE..itz hurts so much but wen tis cute doctor put a plaster on my toe,e pain was gone..den e doctor asked 4 my number so i tink itz ok 2 xchange phone numbers..Sum doctors r cute too..Thanz 2 e motorcyclist whu hit me,i get 2 knoe tis cute doctor..
--->>Tis is an example of crappy post tat u guyz can write..Anyone who read tis n believe it,u shud get a shot right thru ur head..How gullible u pple can b..haha!! Actually i am a gullible person..Anyone has a gun??
Ok..Enuf..anyway,juz now i was suppose 2 go out but den..afta blogging i felt a sharp pain on my back..sumting lyk a cramp..i lay on my bed but it get worse..Not only tat,my whole body was so weak n i started 2 haf a headache..i tink if i still go out,i might juz get hit 4 REAL..so i decided 2 juz stay at hm n cancel out my meeting wif him..now i still felt weak n my backache is driving me crazy..!! Surprisingly,i can still blog..Computer are a distraction in my life..Sumbody plz burn tis computer of mine..
Hope i will get betta by tues..
Miz ya all cute adorable lil devils..
Angel Outz..!!
Orite..here i am blogging coz i feel lyk it..Itz sun n im not werking..damn yesterday was a hell lot of werk..13 hours of scooping icecream was so much tiring den throwing rugby balls..n i got back ache now..Yesterday,it was suppose 2 haf 4 werkers including me n SUDDENLY....(here cum e suspense) 2 of e werkers cant turn up n it left me n my fren..WAT E FISHball soup!! 2 pple werking on saturday..n both of us werk 4 13 hrs..!! BUT den..my manager's boyfren turn up n help us..it was such a relieve..atleast 3 pple werking is betta den 2..wat makes it betta tat he is so damn cute..he is a japanese but haf perfect english accent n can talk malay a lil bit..!! ahaha!!
It was a whole lot of pple yesterday tat e shop turned chaos..but it was so much fun..we had burned waffle..i step on choc icecream n e whole place haf my shoe prints..we haf icecream on our face,shirts n jeans..we didnt washed e strawberries n juz serve it..n tons n tons of dirty stuff..hehe!!
When doing closing,everyone was so tired tat we talk crappy stuff,singing out hearts out,teasing e coffee bean pple(azri,sara's classmate)..Overall,it was satisfying werking 13 hrs..Anyway,my x n his frens cum down at my work place..i didnt knoe y but he msg me n told me tat he wana make it up 2 me..sumting lyk patching tings up..haiz!! No comments on tat..Later im goin out 2 study den meet him 2 haf a good talk..
In life,u haf 2 make a choice..every choice u made r e tings u haf 2 live it up 2..every choice of mistakes makes u a betta person n learn e true colours of life..itz u who lead ur life not God..Pple keep on saying tat itz fate n destiny but they don realise tat e choices they make tat make their fate n destiny..i donnoe if u guyz agree on my statement but tis is wat i believe..itz up 2 each individual..
Im done wif tis post..will update more if u guyz still cant get enuf of me...ahahah!!
Nisa Outz..
Saturday, August 19, 2006
>>FiaNna iN Da HoUsE<<
i thought of updating e blog yesterday...
but..
i was too tired & sleepy...
Yesterday..
i went for my silat training...
i trained my speed, kicking & punching...
after training for seni(movements of e silat)..
it's time for olahraga..which means sparring...
for e 1st time..
i have to sparred with a gurl..
cos everytime when i sparred..
my instructor paired me with a guy to sparred...
before e sparring..i told my opponent that i'm gonna let it all out..
cos at that point of time, i was angry with some1...
& i apologised to her beforehand..let say if i went overboard...
during e sparring..
i managed to bring her down twice..
but during e game..
she accidentally gave me 2 hard punch on my jaw..
e 1st time was alright for me..
e 2nd time..i could feel a sharp pain at connection of my jaw...
ouch!
now..my jaw's swollen..and i can't really talk or move it cos it's painful..
i can't barely chew e food down my throat...
but one thing that i'm happy 'bout is..
after my match..
my instructor told me that i've improved alot..
which was a good thing..
cos this yr..after i lost in e NATIONAL SILAT COMP..
i was kinda disheartened to compete again..
now..i'm back in a full force..
i'm READY!
& i'm really in a dilemma...
it's 'bout e ITE MUSICAL SHOW..
e show's in nov...we got allowance for it..eg. $3/session...
but..
i felt like quiting..
should i? or should i not??
i'm halfway through..
i felt that i've lost my singing voice..
after all e shouting & involvement in sports..
& i'm really exhausted..
help me pleash!!
people said that it's once in a lifetime chance where u get to perform in front of thousand ppl..
but...
e trainings...aaargghh...sometimes i just can't take it..
and now...
my soccer training will start next friday 2-5..
and i've got dance training for e ITE MUSICAL SHOW 3-6..
after that i've got silat...
pleash!! help me...
aaaaaaa!!!
part of me wanna quit..another part of me don't wanna...
and in sept..i've got a soccer comp...
i really wanna put my marked in soccer...
i'm confused!!
damn...
today..i didn't go for my vocal training...cos i can barely sing...
pleash..give me some advice..or opinion...
i really need some help...
for other updates...visit my other blog..
:(
>__MiSsY FiaNNa__<>>OUT!!
man.. reading ur blogs have made me realise how BORING my life is! lol. sometimes thats not a bad thing for me. i like time alone. but i HATE weekends alone. especially BOTH weekends. haiz... but what to do. today im in shortage of money for an outing so i probably wont go out at all... unless if my mom comes back and gives me money. =D which is unlikely to happen cos i HATE to ask her for money. not cos she wont give.... its cos it's just NOT in me to ask from my parents. and this is the reason as to y im up to my ASS in debt to ppl. lucky its my closest frens... so its not that bad. i owe the 'guy' 20 bucks. lucky he's an angel and i dun have to scrape out his cash JUST yet. will slowly pay him back. not that i LIKE to borrow money okay... just that sometimes i get stuck. super glue stuck. so no choice. =( hahaha...
okay.... so i have no plans for today... which sucks. but im like bored at home... plus theres NOTHING to eat dammit. grrr... i hate to have no food at home AND no money. nak calling for food pon tak boleh. haiz.... look.... its me being self-obsessed again. dammit... i got to stop this. but this is MY blog... hahahah... so im entittled to be self-obesessed HERE! yay!....
haiz... nothing much happened to me this week.... hey.. this gives me an idea... lol... if u have nothing to blog in the week u blog at the end of the week and summerise! yay... heheh.... or u can blog AND summerise also! hahaha.... kk... crap spilling out of my mouth already... or hands.... anyway... lets see... monday was well.... i cant remember. tues we had training..... wed... i think i went out the him. thurs had training again... then at night had to study for test the next day... but i spent most of the time chatting with him online. fri he met me in school early to study together.... but we ended up gettin joined bu our other classmates. LOL. well at least he offered to acompany me in the morning.
so thats about it! lol... if anything interesting happens i'll be sure to keep u guys updated!
love ya'll
shasha
my mates in class.My darlings... How are you doing?
im fine.. SHA, why are you not updating? NISA? Where is everyone? Must SHA sound off then someone like me had to start blogging? hahaaaaaaaaaaaa
ok.. I so love today. Hang out with my Man... After school was supposed to go eat Seoul Garden with my classmates but i didnt join them. Y? because i want to budget myself. Anyway i didnt have the mood to eat big. So planned to meet him lah. He is always my last resort. Haha and it will always work. =)
So, after school went straight to Bedok Reservoir, waited for him... waited... waited.. and he came down with Khalis, his younger bro. His bro wanted to withdraw money. Ok so we accompany and yada yada out of the blue, he treats us to macdonalds! ahhaa yay! i love freebies! hahahhah
After eating, accompanied my bf to SSDC to book his bike practical. So we were bored and decided to go places we hadnt been to together. So i suggested Juntion 8, but he didnt want to yada bla bla end up going to Causeway point. HAH its been along time since i stepped there. And kebetulan, there's pasarmalam too. He suddenly have the urge of playing water guns with me. So ape lagik, we bought the pasarmalam waterguns and play with it! ahhaaha belo! yaya yada.. it was fun BUT he spoiled it lah! Slipa die terkoyak.nasib pasar malam ade, beli slipa 80 cent. haha And oh i saw loads of people i know... i saw nana,ut, nadiah my classmate n bf and indra my classmate too with gf. haha!
Ok thats abt it. No i wont make my day very detailed here. haha Alright my babies, next up, please lah blog anyone! =)
Friday, August 18, 2006
Anyone miss nisa??
At tis point of time,i shud b doin my OFA project or even studying!! My end year exam is less den a month n here i am chatting,giving testi 2 shasha,checking my email & BLOGGING...Wat e fish?? I shud start doin sumting useful..no self discipline,i might say..erm..anyway..my previous test(LSM),i do badly..i juz pass..my teacher was lyk "wat happen to u??" coz my 1st CA1,i get 45/50..haha!! I need to pull up my panty man!! Kk sumbody juz need to knock sum sense in my brain..
Ive been waking up late n missing sum of my early classes..Im turning into worse..HELP ME PLZ SUMBODY!! I donnoe wen i wana start revising but wat i knoe tmr im werking frm 9am-10pm..yeah!! 13 hours of werking..a hell of a time n a hell of a money..Pray 4 u sara tat u get e job..seriously tis job is fun..ur feasting on icecream every hour of ur werk..weeee!! Im gona grow fat...hope e training will prevent me frm turning myself into a humpty dumpty..hehe!! den i will b e cute version of humptydumpty..
These few days..haf alot of fun wif my frens..we haf lyk 4 hours of break on wed..n we roam around expo n do crazy stupid stuff..n on thurs we haf 3 hours of break n we all go 2 changi 2 eat e nasi lemak..itz was pack wif pple but we manage to find seats 4 8 of us..we r juz a bunch of idiots n attention seekers sia..(mcm bapak kite nye kedai)ahaha!! kk enuf bout my klassmates..
As 4 my rugby mates out there reading my post,cant wait 2 c u guyz again tis tues..We gotta do more driving of balls,wrapping,good hands,running into gaps,running onto e balls & bla bla bla...tink i can memorise everyting tat coach says..haha!! Cant wait 2 c fefe,nana n mel..miz u guyz!!!
Aniway,believe it or not,Anne haf friendster..i juz add her yesterday..haha!! Okok im done wif my posting..wen i post i juz keep talking n talking till u guyz juz shut tis ting off..but whu cares..im writting n u guyz haf 2 read it no matter wat..hehe!!
Ok shasha,sara,firah.sof,yanti,soffy..plz post sumting..juz a paragraph or 2..it was suppose to b OUR blog..remember?? not mine n yana..hehe!!
Kk im off 2 bed now..wen i type,i cant stop..tatz y i haf 10 fingers..need to chop sum of dem off..any1 wana help??
DARN NISA CAN U JUZ SAY UR LAST SENTENCES!! haha!! kk luv u guyz..
Nisa Outzz..
Wednesday, August 16, 2006
HIM


Listening to the songs....
i mean to our blog song...
By just listening to it...
haish..
it just reflects on me...
how i wish...
he's e 1 for me...
how i wish..
he's mine...
how i wish..
he feels e same way like i do...
being single..
there's positive & negative side to it..
E POSITIVE:
U can be friends with any1..
there's no restriction in whatever u do...
spend more time with family & friends...
don't have anything to worry about..
But..
E NEGATIVES:
sometimes...u just can't help but feel LONELY..
and i really mean LONELY...
sometimes..u'll remember 'bout ur past..
e memories...
it really hurts sometimes..
sometimes..u keep asking urself why it happen..
but there's no ans to it...
me..
i love being single..
but at e same time..
i longed to be attached..
i realise that only when u have some1 special in ur life..
then can u forget 'bout ur past...
haish...
sorry for being EMO today...
if wanna read up more 'bout what happen...
visit www.tragicgurl.blogspot.com
till then..
take care..
c u guys during training...
Fianna out!
;(
IF I CAN HAVE 1 WISH....................


Hey...
guess what..
i've just finish blooging..
& my comp restart...
damn..
that just sux..
so..
as i was saying..
yesterday's training was fast to me..
i still wanna play..
but e NATIONAL U 17 need to use e field..
that sux..
i was kinda distracted during training...
cos THAT GUY is also having training on e track too...
gosh..
no worries k..
i'll focus more next training...
hmmm..
now u gurls know whose e ASSHOLE guy NATIONAL U 17 whom i was talking about?
i wonder why can't he get e msg "GET OUT OF MY SIGHT" to his head...?
he pretend to asked for sofiah(nurul) yesterday...
but our sofiah terase..
hehehe...
U GO GURL!
k la..
i'm outz for now..
wanna go to sch...
>__MiSsY FiaNNa__<>>OUTZ!!
Wat e hell?? People keep saying "get over it"..But wat if i cant?? Wat if i dont want to?? Do they knoe wat im feeling inside?? They ask me 2 b strong but am i strong enuf 2 get over it?? They ask me to move on..but i dont wan to...im stubborn..i still wan to hold on 2 my past..tatz e best 4 me now..I appreaciate their advice but they donnoe wat im feeling rite now,at tis moment..Fuck 2 all e advise..itz juz wont makes me feel better..
Do he feels betta afta doin tis..??Do he feels so much relieve now??Do i haf to suffer it alone??
My frens,nana,dila,manan..wat r they trying 2 do?? trying to b e good people n make us b frens again..??Frens?? Wif him?? Can i?? It wont b e same...Fuck juz hate tis shit..everytime i talk 2 my frens is about him...him n him...get lost from my life!! e reality juz hits me right thru e face..i dont need ur sympathy gals..i juz wan u 2 understand me..i dont want 2 move on..im not ready yet..i still wan to hold on coz tatz wat my life is all about 2 years back..juz hate it wen pple says "get over it" i juz wan to burn those words..feels so shitty rite now..
Im sorry..i donnoe y i haf 2 feel tis way...i donnoe wen i will 4get tis stuff n move on..can i?? e path of my life has totally changed n i haf 2 adapt 2 e situation...haiz..
If i had 1 wish..i juz wan to turn back time..n change everyting..every single ting...obviously it is a juz a wish tat wont cum true..only true 2 fantasy..
Nisa out..
Tuesday, August 15, 2006
so im bored.. and SARAH's blogging!
hey sweet smelling people! (if u stink, i will still love u guys no matter what.)
im hungry. haha. Actually i have eaten, but still i want sumthing to chew on or whatever.
So updates of my life? Nothing new lah still the same old me, same old thing i do... wake up go school.. same lah.. Except .. i will remember this for life! Yesterday, i was out with my boyfriend to Bugis lah.. we were walking and looking at the neoprint cards displayed yada yada when i heard "AH! AH!" (angry tone lah like makcik2 want to warn her child)
I was stunned and so to my anxiety to know who made that sound, I searched high and lows... I got to know .. The makcik making sound was our beloved SHASHA! believe it or not.. GERAM!! Buat orang suspend je.
So that was yesterday lah.. So today.. Training.. On the wet wet wet field! Like WTFiish! But ok lah to test us on our ball gripping. Yup as what coach says, today was Dropping balls festival. Haha ala coach understand undrstood lah.. It was raining before training started and all of us wanna look good on the field wahahah! ok lame.
And Sof came down for training! yay! Sadly her knees kena again. Kesian adik saya. Hehe, actually almost the whole team gt accidents! Thanks to hero MARK help guide Sof back to the "SUb BOx". Thankx hero. Hoho. And Fiana made stunts on the field. She back-flipped herself. Which was cool to me.
I think this can end foreba and eba! ahha ok i shall stop here...
TAKE CARE MY LADIES!
*if updating leave ur name aite!
hehe..
i totally forgot to leave my name when i blogged just now...
niwaes..
yup..
yesterday i was really pissed off basically with 2 guys..
totally have no mood to eat..
when i eat..i vomitted out e food..
so..no use eating..
i didn't eat e whole day!
& today i was damn hungry sia!
only had 1 prata for lunch....
well..fira..
u know u e guy is right?
i mean e 1 whom i had a crush on..
;p
on last sat..
i thought of having a rugby gerls outing...
but..
every1's not free...
so..
i watched e fireworks with e track & field guys..
it was loads of fun!
:)
there were 20 of us...
if u wanna know more..
i've updated bout it at my other blog..but don't know which ..
it's either my friendster blog.. www.fiannasoccerbabe.friendster.blogs.com/my_life/
or my personal blog..
www.tragicgurl.blogspot.com
>__MiSsY FiaNna__<>>>OUT!!!
MuackZ!!
*LoTsA LoVe*
waSsUp??
Haish...
theRe's just soooo many things that's been going on...
let me tell u...
yesterday...
i went to our sch stadium..
of cos to watch e soccer match..ite simei VS tamp...
i watched both match...
e 2nd match team 2...
2nd halves...
my fwens went back..
left me all alone...
i don't wanna go back hm 1st as i've gt nothing to do at hm...
so...
i just sat there & watched..
my fewn syam(national U 17) came over for a conversation...
then...
adrii..the guy that i hated sooo much..the national U 17 guy..
rmb..i told u gurls bout it...
he was sooo damn irritating sia...
1st he disturbed me...
but i just ignored him cos i wanna be true to my words...
then he came up infront of me...
and apologised repeatedly...
i just ignored...
at last he said 'macam gini leh nangis ar'...
i really wanna teach him a lesson..
hey..
i'm not any kinda gurl that u can play around with..
what do u think i am???
a toy?
u said to syam that u don't know why i'm doing this to u...
why can't u just get the msg in ur head??
why?
do u think by saying sorry..it can change the situation???
gosh..
wake up la...
hey..i'm doing this to stop u from doing the same thing to other gurls...
if u still don't get mymsg..& if u still come up to me..u're gonna get ur ass kick by ME!!
aaarggghh...
i just don't understand guys..
update later ya..
gt some soccer meeting now!
Monday, August 14, 2006
wah at last !! !!
Sunday, August 13, 2006
hmmm..... any ideas?
love ya'll
shasha
Saturday, August 12, 2006
ITE 4N- Itz the end 4 Nisa..
Cant accept it at 1st..tat morning afta e broke up,i msg him straight away..e reality of me bein alone feels so sucky afta 2 yrs+ wif him..but i knoe in life u still haf to move on no matter wat..neva will i blame him..neva will i turn myself to b an emo gal..neva will i cut my wrist n slit my throat..neva! i don haf 2 suffer..i still believe he do luv me but mayb itz juz destiny..i still cant accept e way he ask 4 a separation(juz lyk separation of spore n msia)now i knoe how lee kuan yew feels..haha! k im talking shit..i may b sad but i cant b sad till i die rite??
The chapter of my life wif him has ended..i haf to start a new chapter wif sadness..but i still haf u guyz 2 rely on..thanz 2 shasha n her advice each n evryday wen i chat wif her..makes me feel betta..thanz 2 sara oso..ur a good listener..as 4 sofia..thanz 4 e hug..it do calms me a bit..
As 4 e others of my rugby frens,if u read tis,i don wan u guyz 2 sympatize wif my situation..don ask me whether im ok or not coz it hurts even more..im still e old crazy nisa..juz haf fun wif me n tatz all im askin 4..
Today was suppose to go out wif my klassmate 2 watch fireworks but im too tired afta werk n got no mood..tinking of the fireworks juz make me tink of e past..he was behind me while we watch e fireworks..sweetest memories..i knoe tat if i go n watch wif my classmatez,it will bring tears to my eyes..Sara did say tat e fireworks was so gigantic n nice..itz good tat u experience it wif ur guy..but it wont b e same 4 me if i watch it today..sumting is missing..
K la..im so long winded rite..?? i knoe..haha..thanz u guyz 4 taking ur time to read tis post of mine..Luv u guyz..(now tat word is onli meant 4 my frens whu deserve it..)betta treat me good or i dont luv any1 of u..hehe!
Nisa Outzz..!!
Thursday, August 10, 2006
HEY PEOPLE! SARAH IS HEERREEEE!!!!!

My entry is so corny! ok just play along with me aite. hoho =)
my ruggers rock my boobies! ahaha
im done. NITEY NITES!
hi babes. fiiirah here.
yesterday work was great, thanks to liyana, anthony and karen. i always enjoy work when lyn is around and when we close counter together. and hell yeah, we got a whole lot of things to talk about - new jobs, gossiping and of course about us. haha. i reached home quite early and i went back with no smile on my face. ):
ah what the hell happen to us? you drift so far away from me. i still want you here like how you did the last time. stop telling me you care for me cause you didnt show it. i feel like you only need me when you're lonely. and i feel like you're abandoning me. ):
OKAY TOUCH BABES. today training pleaseee datang. see youuu 5.30pm at grandstand. bye seeemuaaa. (:
Wednesday, August 09, 2006
if only's...

if only.....
if only this guy was my boyfren. id be happy. but he's not. he's just a friend. okay then... if only my next boyfriend was LIKE him. personality wise. thinking wise. character wise. id be happy. i think id marry him. seriously. guys like him dun come around often. he's one in a million. the kind of guys that u dun wanna lose if u have him. the kind u want when u dun have him. cos he's always there. he understands. sadly for me.... none of my past boyfriends had his qualities. so girls... when u find the one u know u shouldnt lose dun give up easily. fight for him if u need to. talk to him if u have to. dun let him slip away. cos after u lose him u'll regret. and regret is something no one should live with. ever. cos regret = bad. anyway... this dosent mean im in love with that guy (in the pic). i just like his personality. something i wan in a boyfriend. if i find another like him... id keep him for myself. if only.
Yaya..today national day n i guess everyone haf so many activities goin on..either goin to the stadium or chilling at sum place or watching the fireworks..etc etc..while me siting in front of the comp..feeling half dead n bored..im suppose to go out wif him but too bad,got a fight n told him a lie tat i was werking today..juz dont feel lyk meeting him tis few days..i donnoe wat happen to our relationship but itz goin down..but i do believe tat he still haf me in his heart always..the only prob is we are lagging of sumting..sumting tat is missing in my life wen im wif him which i cant xplain to him or to myself..weird but true..donnoe wen will tis ting end..
God,plz show me the answer to my question..
Im missing 2 of my closest frens..knoe dem during sec sch n they are the 1 tat make my life complete..(luv dem more den my bf..itz the fact tat i cant ignore)told u guyz tat frens r everyting to me..we are so close tat we try to get a job at the same place..share all our tings..we xchange sports shoes during sch time n i still haf my beg wif 1 of dem..1 of their clothes wif me..bought the same colour of bra n i bought the wrong size(they choose it)ahaha! perm hair together n tons n tons of memories..both of dem are in shatec which is much harder 4 me to meet dem..actually i wanted to join shatec oso bcoz of dem but to tink back all the expenses,i join ite..which now i didnt regret it at all..
Although i made new great frens in ite but still they are more special to me..so happy to meet u gals in rugby tat put my mind away frm dem once in awhile..

Always in my memories...
Nisa Outz..

Elooo...
gosh...
to me..
national day is kinda a normal day for me...
well..it's not that i've got nothing to do..
but..i don't feel excited..
nope...that's when i was a lil' kid..
got excited over the whole thing...!
hahaz..
hmm...
plans?
nope..nt gonna see e national day parade or the fireworks..
cos..
i'll be celebrating at a restaurant with my family & relatives...
my grandma is e 1 who's planning this whole thing.. & she's e 1 who's paying it!
what a supportive grandma! can't ask for more... :)
& i'm gonna sing the night out! we'll be having a karaoke session! yeah!!
hehe...
everybody (my father side)..we're just crazy 'bout singing! hehehe...
it's fun u noe!
gurls..why not 1 day kte g K-BOX ke?
hehehehe...
hmmm..
training..
it was okie yesterday..
but e fitness training..i mean e training before..
it really test my fitness..damn!
hope to see u gurls on thurs...
datang tau! jgn tak datang!
tata...
TAKE CARE!!
*LoTsA LoVe*
MuAcKz!!!
Tuesday, August 08, 2006
sigh.... need to organize better... dammit
anyway... im screwed if i dun learn how to save my money. ppl... help me.... i havent paid my $45 bill last month and this month's bill is coming in soon. i owe y guy fren 20 bucks. which is stupid i noe but... haiz.... plan to pay him back as soon as possible. SARAH! boxers tu birthday present kape? lol... *hint hint* i owe Firah 5 bucks. havent seen her so havent got to pay. oh crap... i have her PE shirt also! lol. damn... see... i need to prioritize.
i SWEAR i will go training on thurs. I SWEAR SWEAR SWEAR. anyway... did anyone go watch fireworks? just now? tmr? ytd?... hmmm.... tmr sounds like a bad time to go watch. heard got lots of stupid stuff goin down at the esplanade. dumb ass 'culture' ppl. sry all hu are offended. but seriously. its getting annoying.
hey nis.... what's up gurl?... whats been bugging u? seems like u've been blogging alot since u knew how! lol. which is a good thing since it seems like onli u and me are blogging alot so far. what happened to sarah?.... hmmm... dah jadi pemalas. anyway... u noe hu to call if u need to talk rite?... dun necesarily have to be me could be anyone else... just dun keep it all inside. not good for health. nvm.. i come thurs then we can CRAP to the MAX! power!
k guys... gettin late. gota sleep. even thought tmr is National Day..... national day.... stupid..... just now was just BEYOND bad. damn.. i've never seen worse planning. they think our school onli have like 500 ppl... wanna cramp everyone in one small damn place. asses. anyway.... love ya'll... see u on thurs!
love
shasha
During rugby time,our training was fun..actually to me,rugby is always fun n xciting..alwayz put a smile on my face..i haf such a great n dedicated coach..i admire her patience towards us..i haf such a nice n happening frens..i miz shasha n sofia..
As 4 my 1st day at werk juz now,it sucks lyk hell..i juz train 4 lyk half an hour n i can go back..wat the hell?! i was so panic wen i was late 4 1 hour n rushed from skul to parkway wif my sticky red black face..the only training was knowing the skills of scooping icecream which was easy 4 1 flavour but difficult wen scooping 2,3 flavours in 1 cup..yes 1 pathetic cup!!! haizz wat a day 4 me...!!!
Feel so tired,moody,sad bla bla bla..sumbody cheer me up plz..im looking forward to tis thurs rugby..k la..tatz all 4 today babes..
Nisa Outta here!!
p.s:aku tak senang tulis blog ni psl ade kumbang mabok masok bilik aku!!! so i haf to stop half way to get out of my room since it fly up to my ceiling!! I juz hate tis creature n oso flying crockoach..arrrggg!!!!
Monday, August 07, 2006
Atlast Goldilock is blogging!!! ahaha
Haha..!! Faced alot of difficulties..im not a computer gal..I donnoe all tis stuff..i don even get it wen sarah teach me(she obviously cannot b a teacher)hehe! Atlast wen my guy taught me den i understand as he wan me to help him update his blog...BUT!!!
i get mix up wif the username..i type ruggerlz instead of ruggerls..(thanz 2 shasha 4 tellin me)haiz!! k enuf atleast i get to blog too rite??
K 1st n for most,i neva regret joining rugby..it takes alot of courage to join rugby alone without my classmate n not knowing anybody...tot i wont make it in tis sport as i am a petite gal..but wat makes it so wonderful in rugby was the frens i made in rugby..(neva know it gonna b tis close)
Make fren wif sofia..she got the same mindset as mine so itz easier to let out my opinion to her..
Shasha- tot she was CHINESE!! kindda freak out wen she talk malay..ahaha!! she is the most adorable among us as i lyk to hug her..(so huggable)
Sarah- Fun to b wif..can laugh my ass out..her laughter is so extreme..!! ahaha!! she makes me so comfortable wen im wif her...
Firah-she is so cheerful..wen we start crapping we cant stop...she laugh at every single stuff...even at small tiny winny stuff..(she can make the environment cheerful)
Fianna-the most sporty gal of all...she is vey talented..silat,soccer,can sing...she is lyk firah..laugh n laugh n laugh...haha! (aku letak korang kat dalam 1 uma pastu aku bomb)ahaha!!
Niway we shud ask more of our rugby mates to join in...especially yanti...cant wait 4 tmr's training..n sha!!! u shud cum 2 training instead of watching movie...haiz!!!
K im done wif my blogging..will blog again soon...
pssst......!! i wana tell u guyz a secret but betta keep it to urself......i got a confession to make.................erm....how shud i put tis ting into words...!!! dammit..im not so good in tis stuff...
errrrrrrrr......actually...i wan........to say........tat.........
i love u guyz alot........
DON SPILL THE BEANS K...I ONLY TELL U GUYZ...!!
so i went there right... and the trip was like a 5 hour trip since my dad wouldnt go faster than 110km/h.... like... 'when the hell are we gonna reach???!?!?' anyway... went there the first day and it was all good... the next day.... my brother took us all to Sunway to shop. which was fun... had dinner at this Japanese restaurant place. it was all fun. what came next was BAD. like capital capital BAD.
we got lost on the way back cos my bro didnt know where the hell the hotel was. then the sign boards of Malaysia was litle help to anybody. and it was night time when we drove back so we were all very lost. then my nephew started to puke in the car. sigh.... everyone panicked already. luck for us there was this SUPER power guy who gave us directions back to our hotel (hope he gets promoted soon). that wasnt the worst part. when we got home i went to sleep right... i woke up at 3 in the morning to vomit...... ler......... like.... gross vomit. then i went back to sleep only to wake up at 5 in the morning to vomit AGAIN.!... mati seh.... by that time my stomach was practically empty. i dun understand how ppl can me bulimic sianz... the feeling of throwing EVERYTHING out through your mouth is just horrible! like SERIOUSLY.
then i woke up feeling like crap at 8... so i didnt have breakfast... i practically didnt eat anything. had to go to a relative's house cos we dun always go up to KL. then the nenek cook food so bloody nice but i couldnt eat a single bloody thing! i drank water... 10 mins later i vomitted it all out again. GRRRRRR!.... then my mon SHOVE ENO in the flavouring of GINGER down my throat!!!! bloody hell..... she definately wanted me to vomit my intestine out. but all the vomitting helped... got the vile s*** that caused all that indigestion out of my system. still couldnt eat much... till now... we'll see how tomorrow goes.
OHH!!! SORRY I MISSED TRAINING ON THURS!!! OMG!!! I'VE NEVER FELT SO DAMN GUILTY ALL MY LIFE!!!! I WENT HOME AND WAS LIKE... OMG!!! I WANNA GO FOR TRAINING!!!! ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!
see how much u guys mean to me?? lol. love u all...
sry for writing WAY too much... had to get it out.
LOVE y'all
shasha
Saturday, August 05, 2006
eLoOoOoO gUrLs!!!

Elooo GurLs!!
WaSSup??!
Hehe..
it's really great that we gurls do have a blog for our team...
seriously..i'm really fond of u gurls..
when i'm with u gurls...
i'll tend to forget 'bout my probs..
which is great..
u gurls makes e world go round... ;p
u gurls make such a great team...
such an insanity & laughters...! hehe...
i treasure u gurls..
never in my life have i got such a fun & CRAZY team mates!!
hehehe...
i'm really sorry for the lost...
i shouldn't have pushed e opponent soooo hard..
damn...
well...
as time passed, our bonds will closen...
i hope we'll always be there for each other..
through our ups & downs....
As time passed, i'm sure we'll open up more..
those who have probs...
just open up...
u'll feel much better after talking it out...
me..
i'll only let it all out during training...
touch, silat or soccer...
all 'bout this guys..
it just makes me sick...
b'cos of u gurls...
u gurls keep me going on..
thank u loads!!
love u gurls!!!
c u on tues...!!!
Muacks!
Fianna signing out!!
Thursday, August 03, 2006
Fiiiraaaaahhhhh blogginggg.
sara
all time gila. likes to laugh out loud like me. i think we got the same personality la, very loud kind of thing. hahaha. i still remember during our first few trainings, one of the days sha, sara and me went back together. and sara started this knocking-on-knee kind of joke and omg, i laugh so hard i cant control and my stomach got cramps. and of course sha and sara laughed too. yeah, that was one of the greatest time we spent together. love you, sara. ((:
sha
indra shahdan. HAHAHAHA. i got so shocked, blown away, electrified, flabbergasted, overwhelmed when i was told about her "superstar" brother. hehe. sha and him totally look the same. the hair, the face and the walk too. nyeahhahaha. love you, sha. ((:
nisa
hi goldilock, hehh. obviously the reason why i call her that is because she got the same hair like goldilocks. heh. she so cute soft gentle dan perkataan-perkataan yang sewaktu dgn nye. NYEAHAHHA. loveeee niiiisaaa. (:
soffia H
she talks like orang kampung. her accents like org kampung. hahha. sorry beb, no hard feelings eh. she veerryyy active and hilarious too. she throws ball very hard. i cant catch those balls that she throw. hehe. loveee soffiaaaa. (:
fiii-ana
fiiii!! i love u lots. this soccer babe, she laugh the same way as me! BAHAHA. scaryy oii. she's a winger, like ME! yeyy. heart you!
okay so today we got training at 5.30pm. please come down ppl, we haven't been running, stretching, dumping, throwing balls and shouting "shasha LEFFFFTT!!". hehe, so yeahh come down okayy.
ouh anyways, i miss him. like HELL. ):
hugs & kisses,
FIRAH.
Tuesday, August 01, 2006
Shasha here.... what i have to write about NOW...

hey hey korang.... since Sarah has been bugging me to write something in here i shall just indulge her.... hehehhe
tak lah... actually i realli wanted to write something here... just that i havent had anything decent to write about!!! wakakakka.... first of all... let me say... I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!... no matter what i know we'll always be there for each other.... right? right?? right???!!!???
okay... so recently ive been in alot of pain.. thanks to my ankle... now guys... i have new things to complain about... now its my back... at the spine area... and my right arm. ler.... banyak injuries ah sekarang... lucky for me... POLITE com isn't till Oct or something.... at least i'll have time to recover and all. hopefully. wish me luck and good recovery guys...
anyway.... yesterday (31/07/06).. i had the floorball competition thing... hahaha... so funny... i played with my team... which consisted of all floorball girls... and i was the only one who scored in 2 games... hahahha... kinda ironic. and aku never REALLY played floorball before. hahaha... but sadly we lost... merepek... the organisation was crap and like nobody was really in charge. so merepek. although i did have fun with my team... hahah... some of the things we did was super funny. but that floorball com started my back pain. haiz..... there's a price to pay for everything...
today (01/08/06)... i had the sports meet.... i did javelin... and guess what??!?!?!? eehheheheheheheh... i got FRIST!!! wakakakaka... yay Shasha! three cheers for me! LOL. dah start bunga... anyway... tomorrow will be having ShotPut and Discus.... shotput im okay with... but ive never tried discus in my ENTIRE LIFE!!!!! AHHHHHHH HELP!!!!!!........ the most i can do is tengok orang lain and try to copy them! hahahaha.... wish me luck guys!!!... luck to Firah too... although she almost bailed on me at the last minute. i could have KILLED HER!!!!..... wanted to leave me alone!.. that woman.... but she went with me in the end and it wasnt all that bad....
okay guys... on Fri (04/08/06).. i will be goin to KL!!! YAY!!! Fri till Mon... so i'll be back in school on Tuesday. korang nak kirim ape-ape? besides gum... which is kinda irritating cos all my frens wan gum and i dunno if i can even bring them in... ler...... anyway.... if u wan to kirim anything tell me and i'll try to get them for you!...
LOVE YOU ALL MUCH MUCH!!!!
shasha














