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    Nisa - 16th June 1988

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Wednesday, August 16, 2006

Same stuff again..Read or juz footloose...

this was scribbled at 1:36 AM | 0 comments
Itz e middle of e nite..feel kinda tired n sleepy but i need to get tis ting out from my heart..tis is our blog so i write watever i wan n u read if u wan to..Itz e same stuff over n over again..U don haf to continue reading my post..u can juz stop here..

Wat e hell?? People keep saying "get over it"..But wat if i cant?? Wat if i dont want to?? Do they knoe wat im feeling inside?? They ask me 2 b strong but am i strong enuf 2 get over it?? They ask me to move on..but i dont wan to...im stubborn..i still wan to hold on 2 my past..tatz e best 4 me now..I appreaciate their advice but they donnoe wat im feeling rite now,at tis moment..Fuck 2 all e advise..itz juz wont makes me feel better..
Do he feels betta afta doin tis..??Do he feels so much relieve now??Do i haf to suffer it alone??
My frens,nana,dila,manan..wat r they trying 2 do?? trying to b e good people n make us b frens again..??Frens?? Wif him?? Can i?? It wont b e same...Fuck juz hate tis shit..everytime i talk 2 my frens is about him...him n him...get lost from my life!! e reality juz hits me right thru e face..i dont need ur sympathy gals..i juz wan u 2 understand me..i dont want 2 move on..im not ready yet..i still wan to hold on coz tatz wat my life is all about 2 years back..juz hate it wen pple says "get over it" i juz wan to burn those words..feels so shitty rite now..

Im sorry..i donnoe y i haf 2 feel tis way...i donnoe wen i will 4get tis stuff n move on..can i?? e path of my life has totally changed n i haf 2 adapt 2 e situation...haiz..
If i had 1 wish..i juz wan to turn back time..n change everyting..every single ting...obviously it is a juz a wish tat wont cum true..only true 2 fantasy..

Nisa out..